Sejak jumpa kita pertama
Kulangsung jatuh cinta
walau kutahu kau ada pemiliknya
Tapi ku tak dapat membohongi hati nurani
Ku tak dapat menghindari gejolak cinta ini

Maka ijinkanlah aku mencintaimu
Atau bolehkah ku sekedar sayang padamu (2x)

Memang serba salah rasanya
Tertusuk panah cinta
Apalagi juga ada pemiliknya
Tapi ku tak mampu membohongi hati nurani
Ku tak mampu menghindari gejolak cinta ini

Maka maafkan jika ku mencintaimu
Atau biarkan ku mengharap kau sayang padaku (2x)

"Loro Wuyung"
Laraning (sakit yang paling sakit)
Ora koyo wong kang nandang wuyung (tidak seperti orang yang jatuh cinta)
Mangan ra doyan, ra jenak dolan (makan tidak enak tidak tenang main)
Neng ngomah bingung (di rumah risau)

Hotness! I’m in love.

This is the best looking Motorola phone I’ve ever seen. This is so going to be my next purchase. What do you think, super hotness or what. Everything looks good, with the exception of the camera. 2 mpx? Quite skimping Motorola, give us a full blow 3++ mpx cam with auto focus and ultra super duper macro mode, like the Sony Ericsson K800i. But still, this phone design alone is killer. And the best part, Symbian OS v9.2, UIQ 3.1!!!!! Ok, I know most of you are going “What the fuck is that??” and I’m sorry for that little geeky outburst. Anyway, Symbian OS is the kind of OS normally used in smartphones, especially Nokia (they owned Symbian if I’m not mistaken) so you can expect user friendliness in RIZR Z8. The old Motorola phone OS is a fucking nightmare.

I don’t know when this phone is coming out, but Motorola needs to release it ASAP.

Cleaning up my email inbox is a nightmare as I also have to skim through the spam folder. Stupid spam filter is not working because some of my important emails end up there as well.

Oh course, most of them spams are the same. Enlarge your penis, find a fuck buddy, win million of dollars by buying a toothbrush, etc. But one spam actually caught my eyes today. It reads: High quality midget videos of dwarfs fucking!

Wait a minute, high quality midget videos of dwarfs fucking!? That sounds deeply disturbing. I was wondering if the title is literal or hypothetical. With a heavy heart, I enter the URL that was in the spam mail: http://www.bangamidget.com

Oh my God, TRAUMA! It looks exactly like its title, a bunch of perverts having sex with midgets! I am not ready for this kind of shit. What the fuck is wrong this people? What is wrong with fucking normal height people?! They are totally taking advantage of the midgets, exploited for the sake of making money.

Is this normal? Seriously you guys, I have never heard of midget porn until today. Ugh, this is just great. I am so going to get nightmares tonight.

WARNING!: Click the above-mentioned link only if you have healthy heart. If you get a heart attack, do not blame me!

I am not that sad. It’s a fucking cat. But my sister and my niece don’t take it very well. They better cry like that when I die or some people are going to get seriously haunted. Well, to mourn the loss of our cat, we went to Starbucks. We are not like other people. We celebrate felines’ death by going to gourmet coffeehouse and drink premium priced beverages.

Since I’m off coffee (fuck!), I had no choice but to drink non-caffeinated beverage. Green Tea Frap is not that bad, a bit too sweet though. Always remember to ask for non-fat milk. The cakes were awesome. I’m in love with the chocolate one in the middle. The tiramisu was okay, and so was the mango cheesecake. The best is still Chocolate Royale but they don’t seem to have them last night.

After Starbucks, we are still in sadness. So, I went to the house of all that is good and pure, Tough Jeansmith. I am totally addicted to this label. I end up buying another bag from them. Goddammit, this is not healthy! Somebody ought to close down this shop before I end up buying the label itself. Hmmmm, owning Tough Jeansmith, that is not a bad idea.

So, she gave me this:

Face mask? Blemish gel? This is not cool! I am royally fucked. My penis should fall off any second now. All this shit just cost my sister RM400. Four fucking hundred! What are they made of, diamond dust??

Well, my sister was generous enough to make sure that his younger brother has beautiful skin so that she won’t be ashamed to introduce me to her friends (nicely veiled, by the way). I do not want to be an ingrate and now that my face looks like a rotten Swiss cheese, there’s no harm in trying.

I was going to take this initially:

But upon further investigation, I found out that roaccutane is not very good for you body. It can stay in your system for a good 3 years. When you finish your roac course, it will continue to work. There’s a good chance of your acne kicking back once the roac diminish from your body. That is why some people need to take a second or maybe third course of roac medication. There is such thing as too many drugs so beware.

Ok, I’m going to put on my mask now (stop laughing!)

Finally! I thought this movie will never make it to Malaysia. After all the hype and awards and exaggerated standing ovation it got at Cannes Film Festival, I knew I have to watch this movie, one way or another. I almost got a pirated copy (naughty naughty!) but thanks to the imbeciles back at the censorship board who decided to close one eye and let this movie be shown in local theaters, it finally opened here on the 15^th of March, whoopee!

One question on my mind though, how badly did the censorship board butcher the movie? Surprisingly, almost everything was intact. The only scene that was cut was when a guy used a bottle to smash another guy’s face, which was not that obvious. Other than that, everything was there, including the word “fucked up” in the subtitles. Shit, fuck, assholes, everything! I think the translators don’t know what those words mean so they just let it go.

I don’t even know where to start. The movie was amazing from the beginning till the end. If you think this movie is all about fantasy, then you are wrong. I’m still wondering if the movie is just a veiled jab at our current world politics or about escapism, going to places that will make us happy even if the place does not actually exist.

Overall, I love the movie and at the same time, puzzled. I like the way del Toro leave it to the viewers to make their own conclusion. The movie is very Alice in Wonderland meets Schindler’s List, with a hint of David Lynch. These elements, they blend flawlessly that your mind wonders, if this is real or not. Confusing, beautiful, wretched. I have to watch this movie again.

California, Santa Clara, United States
Louisiana, Lafayette, United States
Virginia, Reston, United States
New Hampshire, Derry, United States
Finland
England, Southampton, United Kingdom
Japan
Thailand
Singapore, Queenstown, Singapore
Texas, Waco, United States
Texas, Plano, United States
Mexico
Colombia
Region Metropolitana, Santiago, Chile
Reykjavik, Reykjavík, Iceland
Etela-suomen Laani, Lahti, Finland
Etela-suomen Laani, Vantaa, Finland
Stockholm, Stockholm, Sweden
Denmark
Noord-holland, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Ile-de-france, Paris, France
Porto, Porto, Portugal
Greece
Manila, Mandaluyong City, Philippines
Queensland, Brisbane, Australia
Guatemala
Buenos Aires, Buenos Aires, Argentina
Mexico, Tijuana, Mexico
Wien, Wien, Austria
Germany
Czech Republic
Bern, Bern, Switzerland
Cataluña, Barcelona, Spain
California, Grass Valley, United States
California, Burlingame, United States
California, Huntington Beach, United States
Nova Scotia, Halifax, Canada
Virginia, Suffolk, United States
Florida, Miami, United States
Region Metropolitana, Santiago, Chile
Paraná, Curitiba, Brazil
Ostergotland, Linköping, Sweden
Blekinge, Karlskrona, Sweden
Skane, Lund, Sweden
Hamburg, Hamburg, Germany
Noord-brabant, 's-hertogenbosch, Netherlands
Oost-vlaanderen, Gent, Belgium
Nordrhein-westfalen, Cologne, Germany
Wielkopolskie, Poznan, Poland
Rhone-alpes, Chambery, France
Georgia

and Malaysians, you guys are the WIN!

Poor Gerard Butler….

But come on, this movie is fictional. Fictional: is storytelling of imagined events and stands in contrast to non-fiction, which makes factual claims about reality (this, I stole from Wiki). So the movie may have been based on a real event that may or may not have occurred in the past, I don’t give a shit. All I know is the movie has been stylized in a way that everything is changed so that it can look cool.

It’s a fucking movie for God’s sake. You want to be insulted, here’s one for you: what about our Muslim brothers killing each other just because they come from a different sect? Suicide bomber killing innocents in the name of Islam? Muslim women in some parts of the world patronized and belittled because they do not have a penis?

When I see the movie, I can only make one conclusion. I think both the Persians and the Spartans, for the lack of a better word, are assholes. Both are blood thirsty, pompous, vicious, and vile. But that is the way they were back then, weren’t they? Persians and their conquest to take over the world, while the Spartans back home torture their new born babies. Both are shown in a very bad light, it makes you think why this is so important. Why these people even bother turning it into a movie.

One word: ENTERTAINMENT. The cheesy lines “This is Sparta!” “Tonight we dine in hell!” “Pray that they are that stupid; pray that we are that lucky”. For the guys, the hot Oracle (she’s not that hot, but her nipples are killer) and those freakish Persian girls that makes you feel all funny in your pants and those perfect abs that makes the girls go “Ooohhhhh” and “Ahhhhhh” or maybe “I’m cumming!”. We love this, because it’s fun!

Lighten up, don’t be such a sourpuss. Enjoy the film the way it meant to be enjoyed. The world is a complex place and you can’t expect to please every single human being. I am neither defending nor supporting the movie. The movie is boring as it this, there’s no need further explanation. But we definitely need to sort out our priorities.

Gotta love Carrefour and their roast chicken. They were having a promotion the other day, only RM4.99 a bird. Super duper deal y’all! Even raw chicken is not this cheap. I bought 5 :P

This green layout is killing me. It was cool for a few days, and now every time I look at it, it’s like piercing my own eyes. I have to do something about it. I saw this really snazzy pastel white and pink background image in deviantart and I’m going to concoct something out of it.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to have a glass of green tea. (Someone please kill me……….)

From what I understand, the war is called The Battle of Thermopylae. It took place in 480BC. BC means before the birth of Jesus, right? Nice, now I’m wondering if this war actually happens back then. The war is between the Spartans, the good guys with really well sculpted abs (damn I want those abs!), and the Persians, the bad guys that looks really odd. I mean, take a look at this:

The movie is 2 hours (damn!), with the war taking almost 90% of the screen time. The movie is adapted from Frank Miller’s graphic novel of the same name. He also did that awesomeness Sin City, just FYI. I have not read the novel yet, but from what I heard, the transition from the graphic novel to the movie is shot-for-shot, so what you see in the graphic novel is what you get in the movie. The same technique was used in Sin City.

What stands out in this film is the graphic, although I’m not impressed. It was shot in a studio using bluescreen and greenscreen. Stylized blood splatter with heads flying about, the movie is really graphic yet everything looks deceptively fake. I do not like the graphic in this one. Nothing like Sin City, which was amazing in every aspect, from storytelling to the graphic violence. 300 is dull, boring and repetitive. Even the chicks are boring. Come on now, who wants to see girls with small boobs? Aside from the really cool soundtrack, I find this movie forgettable.

Should you watch this movie? Well, it’s your money, so why not? You might like it, or you just might hate it. I’m neutral; I do not hate the movie, nor like it that much. It’s a passable, popcorn flick with a lot of war scene. Will I watch it again? NO.

p/s: you might not believe this, but the movie is called “300 Askar Berani Mati” here in Malaysia. Loosely translated, “300 Really Brave, Kamikaze Soldiers” What kind of translation is this?

When we finally reach the cinema, we thought there might not be a lot of people this late, but we were wrong. There are too many people, and to make matters worst, we saw a group of sexually-confused-individuals, just like last week. But this time they have a few token female friends. Good God, they are taking over JB by storm. You know, I do not want to judge this people. Their life, their business. But what irks me is that they are making a ruckus. How hard it is to queue up silently?

“I want this! I want that! I want popcorn! I want drummet! I want nuggets! I want Pepsi! I want coke!

They are so loud, I wish I could turn around and say “Shut the fuck up you bitches, or bastards, whatever! Shut the fuck up!!!!” but they are huge, seriously huge and in a group. They could easily violate me, so I just have to pretend that I am backstage at a Cirque Du Soleil production.

That’s not all, I even saw my high school teacher in the group. What the fuck happen to him?! How did he end up with these people?! He’s fat, round, short, dark and looks like a hobbit, in The Fellowship of the Freaks. Our eyes met, and a moment of awkwardness. I thought it would be best if I pretend like I don’t know him.

We got our tickets, and get the hell out of there. I do not want to be surrounded by these people. Brute, uncivilized sons of bitches. All I’m asking for is just a little courtesy, you know? I’ve seen their bunch before, and some of them are very polite. They know how to fit in, act like normal human being. But this one is different. They are straight out of Animal Planet. Thank God they bought tickets for a different movie. With their brains, they won’t understand a thing anyway.

South Carolina, Columbia, United States
Virginia, Blacksburg, United States
New Jersey, Mt. Laurel, United States
Massachusetts, Wenham, United States
Nova Scotia, Halifax, Canada
Norway
Saudi Arabia
Delhi, Delhi, India
Hong Kong (sar), Hong Kong, Hong Kong
Manila, Makati, Philippines
Philippines
Singapore
Singapore, Bedok, Singapore
Singapore, Queenstown, Singapore
California, Oakland, United States
Virginia, Reston, United States
Ontario, Toronto, Canada
England, London, United Kingdom
Hong Kong (sar), Hong Kong, Hong Kong
Misamis Oriental, Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
Stockholm, Stockholm, Sweden
Victoria, Melbourne, Australia
California, Sunnyvale, United States
Nebraska, Omaha, United States
Texas, Plano, United States
Pennsylvania, Summerdale, United States
Gujarat, Ahmedabad, India
Budapest, Budapest, Hungary
Sumatera Utara, Medan, Indonesia
Prahova, Ploiesti, Romania
England, Southampton, United Kingdom
Indiana, Osceola, United States
British Columbia, Vancouver, Canada
Quebec, Montreal, Canada
Ireland
France
Tokyo, Tokyo, Japan
Ohio, Dayton, United States
California, Grass Valley, United States
Iceland (Björk! ARK!)
Etela-suomen Laani, Helsinki, Finland
Vastra Gotaland, Gothenburg, Sweden
Denmark
Steiermark, Graz, Austria
Wien, Vienna, Austria
England, London, United Kingdom
Toyama, Toyama, Japan
Auckland, Auckland, New Zealand

and Malaysians, Malaysians and more Malaysians! :D

Sometimes you wonder if people actually appreciate you at all. They want you to do this, do that, help with this, help with that, as if they are that stupid that they cant to figure out how to do it on their own. I’m a very practical person, and I like things done a certain way. Like when it comes to paying the bills. When the due date is today, that means I pay it today, or the days before the due date. And when I want to go out to have fun on Saturday, that means I will go out on Saturday, no matter what, because that is in my schedule.

When people asked me for help, I somehow have this uncontrollable need to actually help them. I could say no, but if I can help, then fine, I would help you. Of course, I expect the favor to be returned one day. Maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not in the near future, but maybe one day, I need help, I expect the people that I have helped before, could at least lend a hand. But this is not the case. I always met with a big fat “NO” when I need help, or at least an opinion.

Can I have a car? NO! Can I go to Scotland to learn video games design? NO! Can I finish my final year in Australia? NO! Can I go to America to learn filmmaking? NO! Can you help me pick up someone? NO! Can you take my medicine from someone? NO! NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!!! God forbid, I should be able to say no sometimes because that’s the only response I’ll get whenever I say “Can I?”

You can’t help but feel that you are surrounded by idiots, you know? Idiots in denial, that’s what I call them. Always full of shit, thinking they know what’s best, telling you what to do, where to work, how to run your life or how to fuck. I know how to fuck, thank you very much, I just haven’t done it yet. And how I run my life, that’s none of your fucking business. Just because your life is fucked up, does not mean everyone have to suffer the same fate. Your life is fucked up because you wanted it to be.

People don’t know the real me. They don’t want to take the time to ask me what I want. I can’t wait to leave this place, so that I can be on my own. And see if these people can actually survive without me.

The gorgeousness Icelandic lady, Björk just drops some juicy tidbits regarding her new album. This is so excited! Her new album is going to be called “Volta”. Yes, only one word, just like her previous awesomeness albums. And it will be released on the 7^th of May, 2007. Ark, more excitement! We will be getting her new album less than 2 month.

Let’s check out who made her roster this time around. I got this from Wikipedia:

* Timbaland (R&B and hip hop producer)

* Antony Hegarty (Frontman and lead singer of the band Antony and the Johnsons)

* Brian Chippendale (Drummer/vocalist in the band Lightning Bolt)

* Chris Corsano (Drummer)

* Toumani Diabate (Malian kora player)

* Mark Bell (Musician and record producer. Previous Björk collaborator since album Homogenic)

* Sjón (Lyricist, has previously written the songs "Bachelorette" and "Oceania")

* Konono N°1 (Musical group from Kinshasa, Democratic Republic of the Congo)

* Min Xiao-Fen (Chinese pipa player and vocalist)

* A ten-piece female brass section consisting of Icelandic musicians.

Mark Bell is back?! WAWAWEEWA! Timbaland?! Double WAWAWEEWA and I LIKE!!! I bet this is going to the best Björk album ever. I mean, Timbaland yo! TIMBA effing LAND!!! That guy can turn shit into gold, there’s no mistaking. Hip-hop and Bjork in the same room? This shit is going to be hot!

The rest is pretty much classic Björk. She likes to work with something new, something eclectic. Chinese pipa player, all female brass section, I don’t know what the hell those are, but it sounds exciting enough to make me wet my pants in anticipation.

I wonder what will be her first single, and also director for her awesomeness new music videos. I know its not out yet, but I just know that its going to be awesome. It’s Björk we are talking about here. There’s no “ordinary” or “simple” in her dictionary. Who could forget “All Is Full Of Love” robotic lesbian video, directed by Chris Cunningham (the same dude that brought us Madonna’s also amazing video, “Frozen”)

p/s: talking about Björk, it reminds me of this guy back in college, who actually pronounce Björk “be-jok”. I wish I could slap him in the face, but I don’t know him personally.

Dear Mr. Lerche, do you know that you have fans in Asia? Do you know Malaysia and Singapore? Yes, we are Asian, so to speak. And we are only a flight away from Indonesia, a country where planes explode and crash into the sea. I know that is totally insensitive of me, and my heart goes to all the people that lost their love ones in those accidents. But I am very much pissed right now because you decided to stop in Indonesia, but not Malaysia and Singapore. So please, can you reconsider or do you want me to go to Norway and kick your ass personally?

Regards,

Ari Miraj.

This may not sound like a nightmare, but it is to me. So please consider this for a moment before you even judge me, as I am a very fragile but cute man with the penchant for petty dramas. The nightmare was so real, that I had to take a moment to regroup and tell myself that it was just a bad dream, nothing more.

It starts with a wedding, and I was the groom! Oh my god, I am getting married?! This is not happening, but somehow, I look happy and I don’t know why. I look genuinely happy with the idea of getting married. I didn’t get a good look at my bride though, so I don’t know who I was marrying. And I can see my best friends, walking up to me, congratulating me and my new bride, who I still don’t know who.

And then, blank. All of the sudden, I was walking out of the shower, and my wife is lying on the bed, naked. And she was pregnant, presumably with my baby. Somehow, I find the whole thing extremely sexy, so I strip naked, take a bottle of oil (not cooking or olive!) and starts giving my sexy wife a sensual massage. I’m sure you guys know what happens next, so there’s no need further explaining. It was passionate and intense, that’s all I have to say. Of course, this is just conjecture.

Blank, again. I open my eyes, and again, I’m walking out the shower (I sure love the bath in my dreams) and my wife is on the bed. She is not naked this time, but she was nursing a baby, my baby. I smiled, I look happy, and I’m a father. I walk to the bed, and lie down next to my wife, with our baby in the middle. I kissed her, and together we look at the baby. I’m complete.

Then, I woke up.

What. The. Fuck. Is. That???????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had lots of nightmares before. Satan tried to kill me, possessed cat gnawing my flesh, George Bush still president in 2008, and et cetera, but this is by far the scariest.

What do you think this is? Is this a sign from God, because He sure got a good sense of humor. Or maybe, just maybe, deep down inside me, there’s a little person that is ready. Ready to be a husband, a father. But my head is saying no. No, I am not ready, and I don’t know if I ever will. I still can’t afford that really cool Louis Vuitton Mink Messenger with Muraki Prints, and that shows that I’m not ready. Until that day comes, I will remain just Ari Miraj; Me, Myself and I.

Maybe I should take prozac before I go to sleep tonight, just in case.

I got two, A Good Year by Peter Mayle and Perfume: The Story Of A Murderer by Patrick Suskind. I prefer movie tie-ins because they always have better cover, and shiny. I haven’t watched the movie version yet as they both got rather scathing reviews from critics.

I wanted to get more, but my dad had this murderous look on his face when he saw me grabbed the last copy of Children Of Men. I slowly put it back on the shelf, and avoided eye contact. Oh and if you are wondering, he paid for the books.

“The new oxygen sensor will cost you RM1100”, said the car inspector. I swear to God, I almost went into cardiac arrest. What is this fucking sensor, and why is it so expensive?! Any car expert can tell me why this thing cost so much, and is it compulsory that I have it changed? Fuck fuck fuck! This is just fucking great.

I totally hate Honda right now.

Ok, I'm out of words, but thank you for visiting!

South Carolina, Columbia, United States
Virginia, Blacksburg, United States
New Jersey, Mt. Laurel, United States
Massachusetts, Wenham, United States
Nova Scotia, Halifax, Canada
Norway
Saudi Arabia
Delhi, Delhi, India
Hong Kong (sar), Hong Kong, Hong Kong
Manila, Makati, Philippines
Philippines
Singapore
Singapore, Bedok, Singapore
Singapore, Queenstown, Singapore
Valle Del Cauca, Cali, Colombia
Indiana, Osceola, United States
New Hampshire, Concord, United States
England, Southampton, United Kingdom
England, Bristol, United Kingdom
Sumatera Utara, Medan, Indonesia (apa khabar orang Indonesia!)

And my lovely Malaysians, you guys do love me, don't you? :P

The fireworks were abundant. Boom! Bang! Crackle! All colors imaginable, its there. The sound of the fireworks alone can make your heartbeat go twice its normal rate. Now, this is not as awesome as being there, but check out the video I recorded last night of the fireworks.

It was a great night. I had so much fun even though the place was jam-packed with people. I do prefer more people around, family and friends enjoying themselves, instead of those “Rempits” and their cheap bikes doing stunts to compensate their small dick. Oh, we did encounter something unpleasant. While we were walking back to our car, we caught a bunch of, oh how do I say this in a non-condescending way, “sexually-confused individuals”, staring at us. So scary, that we ran to our car to save our ass, literally. Thank God we parked nearby, or we would've been so violated.

Starting at RM7++ for a medium meal and an extra 80 cents to upsize your meal to beyond obesity level, I do not remember McDonalds being this expensive before. I miss the time when I can walk into a McD an order a double double for just RM2.50.

I wonder what their excuse is this time. The last time they do it, they blamed the oil price. Please don’t tell me they are blaming the war on terror or the fact that George Bush is still a president for this sudden, totally unacceptable price increase. McDonalds is no longer a cheap fast food, it’s a luxury, and today would be the last time I’m having McDonalds. The next time would be with other people who are willing to pay for me.

Fuck you McDonalds!

This Yahoo Mail spam is getting more and more ridiculous! Do you guys have this problem? Everyday, I log into my mailbox, and there will be like 20 unread emails in my inbox and only 5 of those are actually legit mail, the rest is spam. I don’t think that stupid spam filter is working.

There is this one spam that kept coming in, with the same message over and over again, asking me if I need a fuck buddy. Dude, I’m a celibate! I will only have sex when I get married. As sad as it sounds, I’m sticking with it.

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